Friday, February 3, 2012

Changes...

This last week has been a bit of a struggle for me. As most of you know, I have the most amazing job with the most amazing bosses and co-workers. I honestly do. Well, last week we found out that our job was being outsourced. What does this mean? Well, basically it means that there is somebody out there who will do the same job for a lower price. Thankfully my company didn't leave me completely high and dry. The new outsource company offered us all jobs, but with pay cuts and all that good stuff. I would have to work more hours too. One thing I love about my job now is that I can take the time I need to be with Scarlet and not feel pressured to always be getting in my hours. After much heartache and many tears (Ryan can attest to this), I have decided I will not be moving over to the new company. I will no longer have a job at the end of the month. I'm totally devestated to be losing my job, a job that I have loved for the last 7-1/2 years. With this change will come our new baby, and I'm hoping it will just be a relief for me not to be working when he comes. I'm still not quite sure how to deal with the feelings of not providing anything for my family. This will definitely be an interesting transition for me. Good-bye job, hello world of opportunity.... I guess.

6 comments:

Dari said...

I'm so sorry Ash, that is a hard decision to make. I can relate to how you would feel since I work too. But I bet you will be glad to not have to work when the baby comes, like you said. Just feel grateful that you can stop working and still survive financially, I'm a little jealous. ;)

cowbell kelly said...

That sucks. I wish I had words of wisdom but I don't cause I was ecstatic to quit my job when Ruth was born. Of course I didn't like my job though.

Stephanie said...

That is too bad! Sorry you are so far away. I would give you a big hug. It is probably all part of the big plan and later you will understand why things happen like they do---hard at first and then better in the end. Hang in there! We wish you all the best!

Diana said...

:(.... I can relate. I lost my job that I liked where I was at home pretty much all the time with my girls and had to go find a new one leaving my girls all day every day. I'm gone 11 hours a day now and I literally can start to cry any moment I think of letting someone else enjoy those precious years more than me. Chin up... you have a new bundle of joy and you may be grateful you are not tied to working.

Katie said...

I'm sorry Ashley. I know how much you loved your job. You will be blessed for being a stay at home mom with your kids.

Craig and Monica said...

So sorry you're sad, but you are still providing for your family. Hello, you're a mother! You're giving to your family in many ways and will be so blessed for doing so!