Dear Elliot -- 1 Month

Dear Elliot,

Today, you are one month old.  In some ways it seems like a long time ago that we were in the OR and you were being pulled from my belly.  In other ways, it seems like it was just yesterday that we were headed to the hospital in anticipation of your arrival.  I think my heart my have stopped as it grew five sizes the first time I heard you cry.  I wanted to see you so badly, but you weren't breathing very well.  It broke my heart as I watched the NICU nurses wheel you away before I ever got to hold you.  A kiss on the cheek was all I got to give you before you went on your way.  It was somewhat of a reminder of the little kisses I gave Kingston before he went on his way.  Only this time I prayed for a different outcome. 

You are an amazing baby.  You eat like a champ, you sleep like a baby (awake at least every 3 hours), and you are so adored. 

Scarlet is in deep love with you.  She always has a kiss for you.  She has only thrown a few toys at your head and smacked you a few times, but rest assured, it never phases you.  It's like you're already conditioned to having an older sibling who picks on you.  Don't worry though, it will only be a matter of months before you're bigger than her.  You are almost half her size already! 

As of two days ago, you weighed 8 pounds 6 ounces.  I've had to take you to the doctor a couple of times because you umbilical cord is hanging on for dear life.  Yes, you are a month old and still have your umbilical cord.  That also means you haven't yet had a real bath.  I'm dying to give you a good bath and snuggle with you afterwards. 

I love, love you little toes.  They look like miniature gummy bears.  Scarlet loves your feet too.  She likes to "tickle, tickle" them.  I also love your tiny little hands.  I love kissing them while I'm feeding you and feeling how soft they are against my skin. 

Elliot, I feel so blessed to be your mom.  I'll admit that I was very nervous for your arrival in this world, but you have filled our life with joy beyond measure.  I'm excited for all the adventures we will encounter in the future.  I love you more than words can express.  I'm so glad you're mine.

Love forever,

Mom