Honestly, I cannot believe we have made it to 32 weeks. I'm still doing non-stress tests twice a week. Yesterday I was having some pretty solid contractions and the doctor told us I will eventually go into labor, we just aren't sure when. I feel my body is becoming tolerant to the nifedipine (meds for stopping contractions), so the contractions are coming more often and are getting more intense. Ryan and I are officially mentally and emotionally exhausted at this point. I'm not trying to complain, but when you have no idea what is going to happen to your children and everyday is a new "adventure," it gets really exhausting. I know our son isn't going to live, but I had no idea it would be this hard to deal with. Every time we go in for the NSTs, I'm worried they won't find his heart beat. I try not to freak out, but it's hard. Yesterday his heart rate dropped way low and I just laid there with tears in my eyes. I'm not ready for it to be over yet. Thankfully my nurse just put her hand on my arm to comfort me. This was so hard for me and I know it's only going to get harder and hurt more because the worst part isn't even over yet. I think we are ready for closure. We need closure. Of course if we can get in 2 more weeks with these babies inside, we will be even better with the health of our little girl. We can do it!
I also forgot to post about our perinatology visit last week. We went to see Dr. S. on Monday to make sure the amniotic fluid was okay. The fluid on our son is low, which we expected at this point due to his bladder outlet obstruction. Thankfully our daughter's fluid was great. Again, it was so comforting to talk to Dr. S. They measured the babies too. Girl: 3 pounds 4 ounces; boy: 2 pounds 11 ounces (but hard to get accurate measurements). I was glad to see she was over 3 pounds.
Here's to 32 weeks and hopefully a couple more!